My friends think I’m this wonderful self-less saintly human being and I’m nothing of the sort. I”m selfish, I’m a terrible friend, I am cynical and bad tempered at times, egotistical and impatient. They think because I have a charity project that I run, because I donate my time and money to a charity project, that I’m almost saintly or something. I guess mostly because I’m doing more on the charity front than they are. That doesnt make me better than them, and it pisses me off sometimes when they act like it does, or when they act as if I think it does. (I dont).
Sometimes I think its the guilt they have for not donating any of their own time or money, that drives them to put me up on this pedestal and give me this hands off approach and it sucks. Take me down! I have clay feet; I dont want to be up there. I dont want your guilt to motivate you to make me into the next Mother Teresa in your eyes! If you feel guilty, then DO something about it on your own terms. Dont drag me into it.
Thats all. Just wanted to dump it out in the open
