i was here a few days or week back complaining about not being able to find the real ‘me’ after chemo. about how my haircuts always sucked and such… well, today i got a haircut at the same salon but i booked with the owner instead of one of the other stylists. the owner is small, dark, curly hair and quite tomboyish – and i thought perhaps i’d leave with a decent cut that wasnt so girly and yet i could still do funky things with it and dress it up when i go out.
i go in, they offer me a cup of mint and licorice tea, and a magazine. then i’m in the chair and she’s in the chair beside me questioning me as to what i want. so… i take a deep breath and say: i dont know what i want. but i know what i dont want! and she listens. and i tell her this and that. and she gets a look formulated in her mind, and asks about time between hair cuts (2-3 months would be great -every 3-4 weeks is too costly and time consuming. She asks if iv’e looked in their book and i say no. she goes for the book, flips a few pages, and points to a picture and OMG its exactly what i’ve been trying to see in my mind!
suffice it to say, my hair isnt quite long enough to look the same, but its a hell of a lot better than i’ve had so far and she’s the first one that didnt cut the back off or tell me she cant make the back longer than the sides or i’ll have a mullet. it looks great. i can make it wild with hairspray and wax, or sedate with gel and combing differently and my partner loves it too.
i cant believe what a difference hair has made to my well being. i didnt think it would matter, especially after going through the entire cancer thing – you figure any hair is better than no hair and it shouldnt be a priority, but you know what? how you see yourself in the mirror really does have a huge effect on how you feel even if you ‘logically’ know it shouldnt.
oh… and my boss has allowed us to turn one of the smaller offices into a work out room. we now have a step machine, tv and vcr and dvd player, yoga mat and will soon have an eliptical and jump rope. we’re all determined to lose that extra 10-20 pounds! life is great again. just thought you might want to hear that things arent all doom and gloom with me 
