I’ve lost the will to do anything, be anything.
I want to wake up.
But not enough to do it.
I want to wake up and swim, but also to slip under and sink.
I think I know which is easier, but don’t think it’s right.
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somebody promised you easy?
You are the center do with it what you will, remember what comes easy has little value.
The more you stay in bed the less serotonin (happy hormone) you produce. Try and force yourself get only 8 hours kip. Take hot baths, do good deeds, exercise for at least 1/2 hour (in a row) a day. If that doesn’t work talk to a G.P. Avoid anti-depressants if possible. They tend to rewire your head amd make things worse. Also, some doctors have an economic incentive in prescribing them. This should pass tho.
I read this post last week and it has stayed with me ever since. I feel that drowning sensation too. When it comes to fighting or giving up I often feel the weight of everything pushing me down below. Talk to someone – they will help keep you afloat.
I’m drowning too, today, and there’s nothing I can do about it. Take some solace from not being the only one.
It’s me again, who wrote the post. I got sick of how I was feeling controlling me. Started on anti-depressants yesterday. Told my family, boyfriend and some friends how I was feeling. I’m going to be ok.